My Breaking Bad Eulogy

I haven't watched the Finale yet I'm not so sure if it's even dropped yet, but before I watch I found it fitting to give you (more likely myself) some closure.

I had the privilege and curse of watching the entire series over a span of 2 week. A privilege because this is easily the greatest thing to happen to television in my generation, and a curse because my academic life suffered while I endured my insatiable craving of watching the incredible plot unfold, and if I wasn't watching the Breaking Bad I was laughing at Breaking Bad memes. As any other Breaking Bad fan will tell you the show is simply incredible, you memorise the quotes upon hearing them the first time because the pierce right through to your core when you hear them for the first time, you also probably never knew you were capable of such levels of sympathy before you saw things turn sour for Mr White after he "Broke Bad". I've grown as a person from watching this show and there's very few shows I can say that about (Naruto being one of them of course). 

So in closing Congratulations to Vince Gilligan, Bryan Cranston and the rest of the cast and crew the show was epic and the memories irreplaceable.

Your Friends are YOU.

I tend to place great importance in my friendships in fact  I could say that friends might easily be the most important thing in my life right now. Although I'm flighty and don't speak to all of them constantly I'm incredibly loyal and deeply love each and every one of them even my acquaintances.

However I've been wondering which aspect of your psyche do the friends in your life embody think about it, every single one of your friends embodies a trait which you either posses yourself or would like to possess, and seeing as your ideal self is just another variation of you we can confidently say that your friends are really just a mirror of your current psyche if, If you were to put all your friends in a room and have them interact with one another you'd basically just be watching aspects of your psyche interacting with each other. Which is one of the reasons my best friend enjoys hosting dinner parties, I feel like if you chose your most radical friends and had a meal with them that would be an incredible act of self discovery. 

Which is why the more self aware you are, and you know who you want to be, the right friends will just manifest into your life. So don't be a slave to your circumstance develop a clear mental image of who you want to be, the type of friends you want to have and start being that person TODAY by embodying the traits you want (Fake it till you make it folks), it's that simple. 

Make sure you're aware enough to notice when one of these gems manifest into your life and treasure them, your interpersonal relationships truly are what life is about in the end. It is afterall one of the top five regrets of the dying

As always I'm keen to hear what you have to say, so comment and tell me what you think.

The meditative experience that was my 21st! :)

Do you have a Zen Mode? When for a while it feels like all the answers you need just seamlessly flow into your head, I experience these momentary shifts in my level of consciousness quite regularly, but my life (I'm an Engineering student) Doesn't really allow me to dwell on that plane, I genuinely feel I would lose touch with reality if I stayed there.
Recently at a party at my house, my 21st actually I entered this state momentarily and I just started preaching my philosophy of Love because really that is all there is. I was telling all the people around me to emancipate themselves from the their ego's, I ended explaining to a group of girls that anyone who thinks they aren't beautiful is just deluded and is not yet mature and aware enough to realise just how beautiful they are.
One rather attractive petite girl, justifiably so wasn't buying into anything I was saying and I just held her and told her from the deepest, purest and most genuine part of my heart... "I Love you." She didn't understand I explained I loved her for simply being apart of my existence, my reality and I wasn't in the mood to hold it back. Needless to say she ended up in my room and we had a... Tantalising experience I enjoyed the moment and the night thoroughly, although I didn't have an easy time explaining things to her when a French girl I met earlier that week rocked up later that evening and I carried her in my arms to the Pseudo-Dance Floor that was my TV room where I had a playlist of french songs primed for her arrival. Anyways this how I started increasing my levels of awareness, It's a form of meditation I suppose.

• Lay on your back look into the distance, or focus on whatever you'd like, breath slightly deeper and relax completely let a wave of relaxation come over you notice the weight of your arms, then your legs and eventually your body.
• Listen to every possible sound around you even ones in the distance, you might even hear a small ringing sound if it's quiet.
• Notice how the clothes feel on your skin and how the surrounding temperature feels on your skin.
• You should start to notice a subtle veil of static over your field of vision, (like when you're in a really dark room) take note of it the more static you can see and the clearer it is the better, but don't force it.
• Just let the cosmic knowledge (Whatever you want to call it) come to you.

Anyways this might work for you perhaps it won't whatever if it does then great if not then that's fine too. Eventually you'll be able to enter this state throughout the day but it's more intense when you do it in solitude.
There are many benefits to this many of which you would enjoy discovering on your own, otherwise feel free to ask me any questions if you have any, or if you want me to give my thoughts on whatever situation in your life I'm more than keen to answer.

Grounded

Now I am a pretty impulsive person in nearly all aspects, especially in speech. I am incapable of thinking before I say (Or even sometimes send) something, I tend to say the first thing that comes to my mind, and this doesn't really help me when trying to attract members of the opposite sex. I do have my fair share of female friends but they keep around because I'm like their yapping Jack Russel, I make for good conversation most of the time, but do they fuck me? Well actually yes some of them do but it's a paltry amount. Now I feel it's only fair to you for making it this far that I reward you with a cure and get you sounding smooth as James Bond for once alright here it is:

First go youtube Elliot Hulse watch his videos on grounding exercises and stretches, this is just to train yourself so you can start breathing DEEP or as the man's mantra goes "Breath into your Balls" it'll improve your voice and make you like 200% more level headed.

Second some simple neck strengthening exercises to strengthen your neck muscles, (You can do them on your bed don't be a bitch), one is lay on your bed facing upwards while everything from the shoulders up is off the bed (Your head almost in mid air) Drop your head back to your right and raise it to your left side 

about 15 times do it for both sides, this is also just to deepen your voice

Last but not least, this is a bit more spiritual and esoteric in nature, you want to withhold anything you want to say until you've confirmed it internally, don't analyse everything you say but just wait for some lights to go off inside before you spew the shit you want to say, take a "it's a No until I get a Yes" approach to what you want to say, trust me people will treat you like you're important if you feel what you have to say is important enough that it must wait.
To clarify here's the quote from Jonathan Zap: "A woman I know has been practicing a wonderful inner discipline that accords with the I Ching principle of holding back. She calls the practice “inner yes.” Until a choice lights up in her whole body and being, an inner yes, then the answer is no and she waits. This takes patience, but saves her from many costly mistakes. Similarly, the I Ching puts a high value on reticence, holding back with spoken words and other actions, until you are sure you have the inner yes. When you are dealing with a captive audience, for example while riding in a vehicle, I believe that a moral person should have strong inhibitory filters before they speak. If I speak to a captive audience I am usually blocking any members of that audience from being able to effectively concentrate on their own thoughts. So before I encroach on the perceptual space of the other, I ought to be convinced that what I have to say is something they need to hear, or that it at least has sufficient entertainment value, as compared to me venting or indulging the narcissistic urge to capture attention."

Bonus: Don't Give a fuck about what others think about what you have to say, if it feels right with you internally then don't hold anything back, Express YOUR truth!

First Post... Bitch

As for the title I have been watching an obscene amount of Breaking Bad lately, reading up on the personality types of each of the characters too. For those who are wondering and aren't new to Mbti type theory Walt is an INTJ and Jessie is an ESFP interestingly they're exact opposites.
As for why I started blogging well one can't be too sure really, everyone was giving me advice like: "Make it about something that interests you" or "Do it to serve others" or "Allow your highest self (soul) to express itself." So I figured I'd use it to just consolidate the thoughts of my perpetually scattered brain.