Be Formless

One of my biggest insecurities for the longest time was that I thought I wasn’t interesting, not only the characters in the movies I watched, but the people around me particularly in high school all seemed to have something that differentiated them. I at a time even pondered getting lower grades to be seen as one of the “dumb” guys, lol absurd I know.

So I did what any nerdy high school senior would do, I read, a lot but still very little of everything with the intention being, next conversation I have they’ll find me so interesting. But in my quest to become interesting I have since realized that to be interesting all the ideas I was accumulating were separating me from those I was trying to interact with, I had forgotten the cardinal rule to be interesting you have to be interested.

What’s really interesting is letting who you think you are or should be die, in every interaction just toss out all the bullshit, be vulnerable in your purest expression of self. That’s where the magic is, and when you are formless you become an amalgamation of every soul you’ve ever encountered and I think that’s really interesting. Because in this very moment you are just as much a part of me, as I am apart of you, and making all these distinctions bores the fuck out of me.